One Year No Cuts!!!

I just wanted to write a little something about this just to tell everyone how, thankfull, and happy, and amazed, and (did I say thankfull?) , and proud I am that this day has finally come.

First, and really, most important, THANK YOU JESUS! THANK YOU JESUS! THANK YOU JESUS!!!  I know that if it wasn't for God, and his love and encourgement, and the hope that he gives me, not only am I positive that I wouldn't have made it this far, but I litterally wouldn't even be alive.I barly remember anything from that one October night, but I know that I should have died, and I know that God saved my life that night, and that he did for a reson, and that, even though I didn't relize it until much later,he started a work inside of me that night that would eventually change my life forever.I now know that God is soo good and has great things planned for me, and I can't wait!

I also want to say thank you and love you so much to all of my friends and family who were there for me through my tough journey (slip ups included).

Jourdan, for being there no matter what, for putting up with all of my crap and crazyness, for holding me when I cryed, for hugging me even after I punched you in the face, for keeping presure on the wounds until help came, for making me stay awake until the paramedics got there, for making me laugh harder then anyone ever can (even if I didn't want to), for doing all of this (plus more) and still managing to be the best sister and friend someone could ever have.

Aunt Jamie, for helping me find God, for helping me get away when I need to, for making me laugh,for giving me hope, and filling me so full of love that I don't know what to do with myself.

Mom,for putting up with my crap, for driving me to the hospital more times then I can count, for doing your best to viset me as much as possible whenever I was away, for forgiving me after all of the fights,and for not giving up on me.

Nay, for always awnsering the phone, for trusting me with your secrets, for keeping mine, for our infamous all night talks, and for at one piont in my life being the only person on earth who really understood me.

Sandie & Sarah, for being my other family, for praying with me, and for loving me.

Brodey, Logan, Wade, Connor, Carlie, and Cayla, for loving me uncoditionnally, for letting me love on you, and for reminding me how to be child-like.

As I write this I get teary eyed, relizing how far i've come, and how much i'm loved.This year hasn't been easy, or great, but i've made it through, and i've made it through healthy.I'm anxious,excited, and looking forward to see what God has planned for me next.

Jesus Culture :D

It was so amazing!!

I dont even know where to start...

Day one was really cool.

Kim Walker led whorship wish was totally amazing as usual.Its been a long time since I've seen her so I was really happy that she was there 'cause I love her.Lou Engle spoke which seriously blew me away, I had never heard him speek before.I was just...wow.

Day two was so awsome.

In the morning Kristene Mueller Led whorship, I had heard her at Bethel a few times but not much, I didn't relize how great she was until now.I'm really looking forward to getting to hear her more.Danny Silk spoke and it was really good as usual.

In the afternoon (after the lunch break) Melissa How led whorship with backup from Kim walker and Chris Quilala.It was so awsome and so so much fun in the croud.I ended up being in what I call the "God Pit" which is pretty much a bunch of people getting really drunk in the spirit and falling to the ground in the middle of the huge crowd, an experence that that was amazing beyond words.Then Lou Engle spoke again, which was, again, awsome.It was also cool because during the God Pit I ended up making some friends in the process who I hungout with at dinner break.We hung around the fountains for a little while, then went to the sundial bridge and then came back to wait for things to start up again.

Wile we were in the big crowd in front of the stage waiting for evening whorship to start a whole bunch of us were chanting and stuff to pass the time.We would yell "We love Jesus yes we do, we love Jesus how 'bout you?!" and then point to one of the upper sections, then they would cheer and return it and so forth.It was a little bit of a longer wait this time so the chanting started getting a little old and then the girl next to me goes "Oh my gosh we should to the wave!", it was a great idea but it was such a huge croud we didn't really have a way to get it going.So we kind of let it go for a bit.Meanwhile there was a camera guy filming the croud and stuff.So a little bit later (still waiting for whorship to start) there was some people with this little boy who was maybe 6 or 7 and we said "Hey maybe we can get that little kid on the stage to start the wave." So we asked the camera guy if we could and he said ok.So we lifted him up there and he ran across and the WHOLE croud did the wave and then he went back the other way and we did it again, it was so cool! After that he came back to where we were and I reached up to grab him to get him down when behind me I hear a bunch of people saying "JUMP! JUMP! JUMP!..." So the kid totally does a stage dive and goes crowd surfing it was AWSOME! After that a bunch of other people started crowd surfing too, it was great.And this was all before the concert started.

Once it started Jake Hamilton led whorship, I had never heard of him before, but I'll never forget him now, he just blew me away! I don't think I've ever headbanged so much at a secular concert, let alone in whorship.It was finominal.We also had a God Pit again which was amazing, again.Banning Leibcher sopke, wich was good too, but I did end up leaving a little early because I was just so exausted and sore, it was a 13 hour day so yea.

-Overall it was just an amazing, fun, crazy, filled, awsome two days that I will never forget.

Thanks for the commentairy captin tatle-tale!

Haha ok so random title that only makes since to me and Brodey probly ....but anyways just thought I'd give a bit of an update.

Well, well, hmmmmm lets see.

Right now things are sorta the same as the last time I blogged as far as the internet status and what I'm really doing.Although I am getting out a little more which is great 'cuz I need it.I have decided (finally) that I really need to apply to the school of ministry at bethel, however I keep procrastinating so I need to call apon some friends for support.Also I was so happy that I did end up making it to Jourdan's wedding in early January it was so amazing just to see her, let alone to see her getting married, I wish we didn't have to leave so soon though.I  now have pictures from the wedding on my myspace so check it out.I am also so beyond excited for Autumn to be born next month!!!

Like I said before I'm still working on the home internet situation hopefully it will happen soon, and well, thats about it.

Bye for now.

<3 

Long Time No Blog!

Hello, hello, hello everyone!

I know I haven't been online in FOREVER guys, but it's not my fault I swear!  As much as is freaking sucks I still don't have internet acess . Right now I'm at the library and I just wanted to give a  little update and let everyone know I'm still alive and such.

Bacicly right now I'm just chillin not doing much of anything in Redding. I've been going to church and hanging around with family but thats about it at the moment. I did meet a few really cool people at church last night so I think soon I'm going to start going out and doing more stuff.

Also, for those of you who were wondering, I am not going to school. It just all became to complicated and impossible so I've decided to just start at Shasta Collage soon and take my GED somewhere in the middle.

But yea, like I said, at the moment I don't have a whole lot to tell you because I'm still trying to get everything going, but I'm not doing too bad.

LOVE AND MISS

<3 Missy

Currently Listening MTV Unplugged By Korn Make Me Bad/In Between Days - Ft. The Cure see related

New Town, New House[FINALLY!], Fresh Start...

Well everyone, I'm pleased to announce that my mom has found a place for us to live.THANK YOU JESUS!

I haven't seen it yet, I'm still at my grandma's house, but I have compleate faith that it's gonna be AWSOME

So I was just letting you all know about that and also that I won't be online for a wile due to lack of internet funds, and wile that sucks, the next time I talk to everyone [online that is] it will be from my new house!

My cell phone is dead and I don't have the charger, but once I find it or get a new one I will sure to be texting people that have my number so look out for those

Love & Miss To All